My bucket list has gotten shorter:
1.attend a Byzantine Mass
2.Vote for Donald Trump
3.learn to live with disappointments caused by myself or by others.
It’s not that i’ve accomplished everything set out in the first list either.I’ve just decided it needs to be less complicated and shorter.
4.harbor no anger,forgive even when it’s not reciprocated and get out of this life praying for God’s mercy.
Can’t ask for more.On the to do list for today:Watch the Trump rally at 7:00 pm,write the blog entry my husband keeps pestering about-i gave him my word i would write on his topic.By gosh,need a nap.Incredibly beat.
I have to stop back in twitter.Friend needs a hand.
My husband also pesters me from time to time about my posting entries for my grand-daughter.He can’t comprehend why i do them for Alexa.He doesn’t have anything against her.It’s his point that’s well taken; she ignores them. I don’t think i neccesarily do them for Alexa either because she probably does avoid them like the plague. I think i do them because i feel i have to;no explanation really.MAYBE in the back of my mind i hope.
Sometimes you just do things for the sake of doing them.
My parents are gone. Most of our family is gone. My brother sends an email from time to time and writes one of 2 things:I’m busy or I’m fine. He called once and I think that was only because i went crazy with worry.I dread the thought of getting that phone call again.You know, that one you don’t expect but should.
I haven’t seen my son since my dad passed away and hadn’t seen him but once or twice before that anyway. I still have the red outfit he and his wife bought me ages ago[ for Christmas] as well as the little purse that a Peebles gift card came in-bet that was over 10 yrs ago.I still have the fleece sheep ‘jammies’ too.It’s not that you treasure things-it’s that you treasure the generosity they were given with and the memories attached to them.
Two things totally break my heart. That mom didn’t get to make the trip to see her grandson and great grandchildren.She was so looking forward to it. I’m convinced it kept her going longer than she might have.She had cancer. The other heartbreak, is that my dad’s brother never reconciled with him before my dad died.Dad was incredibly hurt by it but he didn’t let on.This uncle passed away unexpectedly a few years ago.They may be together now. I believe that my uncle had problems and didn’t really mean it-he probably didn’t even know what he was angry about.I felt badly for his son-he had no idea it was coming.That’s tough-when you know someone is ill you have time to prepare yourself.
What’s left here is our 2 dogs and husband;as well as his sister and his own son. She lives south of us.His son lives out of state.
In May we will have our 24th anniversary.We’re feeling our age. It’s mellowed the husband out. He has a whole different attitude.
He’ll be 60 in Aug.I’m 63 going on 64(Nov). Learned to live with Meniere’s Disease (men-YEERS) except for some natural anxiety it can cause.It’s somewhat like a panic attack and i have medication for it-seldom use it unless it’s absolutely necessary.Not big on pills.You have to expect some anxiety.It’s a totally bizarre disease as far as i’m concerned.
No,it is not a mental illness. It has more to do with the inner ear(s). Boy have i gained weight too. Husband has turned into a skinny bean. Now i’m putting the poundage on.We have switched places.
That’s right & let’s keep it in mind.( As long as i don’t gain too much weight.)
What else have i learned? The words of Padre Pio. Absolutely true-difficult to live by.
We like to hang onto what we think we control.
Finally, i actually grew up. Some ppl didn’t like the old me.Some people are really not going to like the new either.I have nothing against people with same sex attraction; i only believe they cannot be married and should remain celibate. The homosexual agenda has become militant;but that fits in with our over-sexualized culture. It started with the counter cultural revolution of the 60’s. It was meant to build a utopia.It never happened (it’s not going to happen)but it’s leaders got into academia,media and positions of power.Homsexual relationships are not healthy.No matter what the culture tries to force on us they can’t change reality. Even in so called same sex marriages they are not generally monogamous.Sooner or later one or both cheat-or have an ‘open’ relationship.Hardly a marriage. It doesn’t work. Male and female are
complementary and meant to be husband and wife. Husband and husband doesn’t work.Wife and Wife doesn’t work. It’s perverted.
I believe everything Holy Mother Church teaches.I am certain there is life after death.
We can’t condemn ppl but we can judge behavior and that includes our own.
We can avail of the mercy of God until our dying breathe.
After that-too late.Abortion is intrinsically evil and the greatest scourge on our culture today. Saint John Paul II referred to this culture as the culture of death.
The hardest part is forgiving ppl who may not want to forgive us.The beautiful part of the Catholic faith is that we know God offers forgiveness.Always.Whether we’ve been away from the Church for 10,20 even 30 yr, like i was.I’m no longer impressed by people we’re supposed to be impressed by;Justin Bieber to me is the perfect example of a whole generation who see self worth as based on IMAGE,not substance.Beyonce,Madonna and Miley Cyrus fit that category too. Mother Therese is a better role model. Mother Angelica is a wonderful role model. .i’ve become even MORE conservative. I could care less what people think of me and more about doing the right thing these days.I am not super saint;just making do and working on a few things.
The last word for the day.TRUMP IS THE MAN.There’s a lot of things he may or may not be but he’s honest.